Thursday, December 31, 2009

2009 回顾之最

1)最感恩的事
换了一份工,加了一些钱,多了一些新朋友

2)最高峰的灵命
去SURABAYA ASIA FOR JESUS 之后,满满的信心要迎接神大大的复兴。知道,原来复兴可以那么大,是千人千人的去信主。

3) 最大胆的成就
敢敢接下教会要在3个月筹备的里面搞一个千人嘉年华会。我说,若不是耶和华看顾,建造的人就恍然劳力。
4)最感动的事
爸爸买了一个秋千给我。他说,“小时候你不是很想要有个秋千吗?” 连我都不记得的那个十几年前的要求,爸爸却放在心里那么久。

5) 最心动的艺人
金沅来 - “食客”里的Chen Chan Ni。偶的超级梦想情人:有礼貌,爱家人,正直,脚踏实地,幽默,老实,好body。。。。

6) 最好看的剧
小娘惹

7)最想买的东西
洗衣机,GUCCI 手袋, LONGCHAMP 手袋, NOKIA E72 手机,沙发,屋子,VIOS 车。。太多,算不完。=_=

8)最仰慕的人
Pastor Philip Mantofa. (有一些人,当你看到他,你就感觉到耶稣的靠近。给我,腓力牧师就是那数一数二的一位)
9)买了一样最贵的东西
飞香港的机票 (可是到最后也没用到)

10)最有爱心的行动
透过世界宣名会,领养了一个小孩。她的名字叫Paniit, 4岁,家住在泰国。

11)最miracle的经历
声音本来沙哑不能唱歌,哪知站在台上声音却开了。更神的事,下台之后声音又回复沙哑。

12)最觉得不配的恩宠
连续被不同的外来讲员叫到台上给恩膏,被发预言。(我想,不是因为我有多特别,乃是因为我比众人多软弱所以神特别开恩怜悯)

13)最感动之歌
你神迹如此真实 - Muzizat itu Nyata.

2009好似都没什么大事发生,不过就像圣经说的:"我们好像一无所有,但却样样都有”。今年经历了很多属灵的旷野,有高有低。不过也因为如此,才真实的体验到信实的神如何在我的软弱上显得完全。每每一次走到路的尽头,神都在那里,带着“重来的力量”将我扶起来。今年也参与了很多领袖的服侍。间中难免会有摩擦,有意见,甚至有苦毒。。不过,如今回顾所走过的路,我只有感恩。祝牧师说,我们被拣选成为神的器皿并不是我们有什么可夸的,乃是神要提升我们,使我们得成长,被祝福,然后去祝福别人。神也教导我,迎接复兴不是只有祷告,而是行动也要跟上。做领袖的,你不单只是抓住异象的一位,你也必须是将这个异象放在你的团队每一个成员身上, 让每一位都走在同一个异象里。说真的,神今年教了我好多关于领袖的品质,信心,异象,管理和祷告。

谢谢耶稣一年的带领。因为有耶稣,我为所经历的献上感恩,也为前面即将到来的给交托。To God be the Glory.

Amen~!!



Tuesday, December 29, 2009

没有分享的距离

有些人生里的某一段
是你身边爱你 在乎你 愿意希望能够听你分享的
好像
谈恋爱 要结婚了 怀孕了
那份瞬间的喜悦 小组的家人期待可以陪你走过

可是
不知所谓的原因
没有的分享却带来关系的伤害
只想听你说你的喜悦却发现藏在地毯底下的那摊灰尘

也许
就是因为太在乎
而在意你的不在乎

我想
是我太在乎
别人的不在乎
结果你我的距离就越来越 无在

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

一瞬间 VS 一辈子

喜欢的感觉只是 一瞬间
没有什么一生一世只爱某个人
所以 不要因为那个你很有感觉但他对你没感觉的
而 失去那个本来为你预备的
不过
婚姻的委身是一辈子
一旦决定了与那个他进入婚约之盟
就是一辈子
即使
那个瞬间的感觉 也许 偶尔 会消失


委身是感觉生长的暖房 :)

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

转化

相信你的天父
祂可以将眼泪化为珍珠
将挫败化为智慧
在祂恩典里 有怜悯
可以 再活一次

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

放手你就得着

今天
你愿意放下心里的委屈多少
神就充满你多少
10% 的放下,你就得着神的10%
90%的放下,你就得着神的90%
有些事
不是渴想得着一句道歉而耿耿于怀
有些时候
是先放下自己选择饶恕
你才得到 释放

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

如燕

词曲:陈佳明

愿意合上眼才能美梦无边
别让悔熏乌了从前
也许碎片才能让回忆展颜
何妨瓷花拼凑明天
谁带我寻获幸福的模
却自己谜中困锁
谁为我留下缱绻的天涯
信物是抹晚霞
思念如燕它飞舞舌尖
若是真爱配尝几分苦甜
意念婆娑时间里推磨
追随到何处才结果
燕如针线在青空缝编
几幅女红将以泪缀点
誓言斑驳情雾只是经过
风雨中且让
风雨中且让我盈步婀娜

(花语:超喜欢这个词,太有意境了。希望有天花也可以写出这般好词。)

Thursday, October 22, 2009

你的信

天外捎来 你的信
字里行间 爱相随
句句慰问 孩儿心
千山万水 你我别
爱在主里 永不变
我们都是 一家人

Thursday, October 1, 2009

A True Giving

True giving happens when you are overflowing from the inside, and cannot help but share.

When there is so much love within you that it has to flow to others or you would burst open.

There is no thinking involved, no willpower in such sharing.

It just flows out. If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own Self with these emotions.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Feel

想写很多东西
写感觉 写感动 写东东 写那一瞬间你的微笑
换个风格写写那些有的没的 快乐

我在这里
也可以 很free
让这个free 舞出那有feel的天空

Monday, September 28, 2009

重来的力量

路也许遥远心也开始倦了
复兴的渴慕被现实一点一点给吞噬
停下脚步问问自己
不甘心就这么放弃属于你我的幸福
信心是给我重来的力量
重新为你去织梦

给11月7日开幕礼的委员
也许我们都年轻 面对整个社区的巨人我们过犹而不及
我愿转眼仰望耶稣 相信社区的门会为我们而开
只要我们愿意去相信
我不想就这样放下 拿起那个力量 重新走下去

给小组的家人
我们都在经历突破
每一个星期的分享为我们带来继续走下去的力量
如果没有过去的眼泪 就没有今天的坚强
如果没有过去的经历 就没有今天的感恩
我不想就这样放下对你的负担
带着复兴的渴望 我要走下去

给那个远方的花
也许前方的路你无从无去
心倦了泪也干了等待的答案却久久没来
不管伤多深 只要我们愿意就能够坦然面对
花开在有时 造你的必知道什么季节花开的最灿烂
每个等爱的人 一定也懂得 等那值得的人

给那朵等待的云
我不想就这样离开 为我吹来主动的风
愿你的感觉 我的感觉
升华为无数的感动
为我们的花园
下一场幸福雨


词曲:赵治德

關上門 關了燈 兩個人 這一秒你看我的眼神
理智在狂奔 在無聲討論
當感覺已冰冷 心還能否忠誠
不想就這麼放下 給我重來的力量
不管傷多深 只要我們 還願意就可能
帶著重來的渴望 坦然過去的悲傷
每個懂愛的人 一定也懂得等 等那值得的人
直到最愛的人

Friday, September 4, 2009

A sweet escape to Saufiville Resort, Janda Baik

On last week Merdeka holiday, our cell group had went to an awesome place for outing. I wish to dedicate this write-up and all the credits to the house owner - Encik Saufi and the family. Is an honor of being their 1st customer, and I believe, this will not be our last time of going to da place.

What and where is Janda Baik?

Known for the legend of a kind hearted princess, Janda Baik is situated on the Main Range (otherwise known as Banjaran Titiwangsa) of Peninsular Malaysia. A 40 minutes drive from the hustle and bustle of the busy city life of Kuala Lumpur, Janda Baik provides us with an alternative weekend, of fresh air and tropical greenery that swept our feet away at first sight.

Janda Baik (loosely translated as 'A Good Widow') indulged her visitors not only with her breathtaking beauty, but the blend of traditional Malay houses and modern architecture resorts gives visitors multiple diversed options.

After passing through the undertunnel of Genting Sempah, you will find the road sign of Janda Baik on your left. Follow the way and it will leads you to the mountain where it belongs. The mountain cliff is similar to Cameron Highland, whereby you will find it kinda slope. However, along the way you will find yourself have indulge into the old traditional malay kampung feel. A brief 20 minutes drive along the cliff, you will reach Saufiville Resort.

Saufiville Boutique Resort
Initially, the house is belong to a big family and they will come to spend their weekend occasionally over here. However, after the development of Janda Baik as the newest tourism spot, they have decided to open up the great spot and share with the public. As per the villagers in Janda Baik, Saufiville has the best view among the others.
Saufiville is a bungalow concept with 6 rooms. 2 rooms with attached bathroom and 4 rooms with sharing bathroom. The bungalow is approximately 5,000 sq.feet and is situated on 12 acres of land surrounded by fruit trees,vegetable plantation, fish ponds and also a goat farm. The swimming pool is private owned. That's mean you can own the swimming pool when you have rented the whole place down. Another best thing is, the water is flowing from the mountain water, which villagers called it Spring Water. The cold-ness of the water is just different from what you have in the town. It is indeed very refreshing and cooling while you dive into it.

Price
You may rent the Whole Bungalow for $1500(max occupancy is between 18 to 20 people) or you may rent individual rooms price ranging from$280 to $180 depending on the room. Complimentary breakfast is inclusive together with the accomodation. Besides that, they also serving Local Cuisine,Western and Steamboat. Barbeque can also be arranged. Anyway, tailor-made menu is upon request.
Facilities
Although this is a kampung place that you would hardly find a shopping complex or recreation centre in Janda Baik area, but spending your time just being in the Saufiville is just another experience of relaxation and rejuvenation. Allow me to name you a few where I believe is enough to impress you away:
- karaoke room: full set of karaoke system which they even provide the ready karaoke song, such as "My heart will go on".. (LOL...:P)


- fishing: for those who like fishing, or just enjoy seeing someone fishing, this activity will definitely please you off. Saufiville own 3 units of fish ponds that full of patin fish and Talapia. Mind you, the first night BBQ patin fish is freshly caught on that afternoon itself.
- ping pong
- swimming
- goat farm: they own a goad farm where you find over 50 over goats is over there. For me a city-girl, goat is something very rare in my life. And I found it so exciting when I saw 50 over ekors of goats watching you while you step into their home - "kandang".
- durian eating: they sell their home-grown durian of 1kg at RM3 only.

Trust the above info is sufficient enough. However, should you have any further enquiries, please email to saufiville@gmail.com. Encik Saufin, the owner of the house will be glad to assist you accordingly.

Last but not least, One thing that touched me very much is the hospitality that had given by the family. They maybe someone who is richer than many people, but they are incredible-ly humble than anyone else. I think, this is one of the reason that God bless the family so much.

Friday, August 14, 2009

天空里的那朵云

原来不是天空有时阴晴圆缺 而是在天空里的云要来拥抱每一个改变的季节
天空永不改变 无边无际 浩瀚天涯
随着吹来的风 云要改变

以为换个新环境可以忘记过去想摆脱的一尘不变
也许换个新朋友圈子可以多一点爱心少一点任性
期望换个新方向可以有个重新做梦的勇气
我们不停的寻找属于我的那片天空
却不知原来我就在天空拥抱的里面

环境依然没变如果我们不变
朋友依然只是朋友 如果我们自己不先学会去爱
天空不会光华四射 如果没有云愿意随着改变的风起舞

我想 大家都没有问题
问题是在我身上

天空从来没有忘记
挂在天际的那朵云

Sunday, August 2, 2009

A tribute to Yasmin Ahmad

Not for me to realize that you have been someone that I respect and honor along these few years. It is a painstaking moment to know that you have left us, and my tears shed when heard of this radio recording which you had done on 2007 with AI FM.

DJ: AI FM,你好?请问谁在线上?
Shamsul:主持人你好,我是Shamsul。
DJ:Shamsul,你是马来人吗?怎么讲着一口流利的华语?
Shamsul:我是ISLAM,不过我读独钟,所以会说华语。
DJ:太棒了!好,有什么要跟Kak Yasmin 说的?
Shamsul:Assaimualakum, Kak Yasmin.
Yasmin: Mualakum Salam.
Shamsul: Kak Yasmin pasti rasa terkejut ada orang Melayu yang dengar radio Mandarin.
Yasmin: Is okai, kan kita semua manusia..

"Is ok, kan kita manusia." This sentence strike my nerve and literally my tears stream down the cheek. Isn't that Malaysian we should be in this way? A unite of a nation is regardless of the races, the colour of the skin and the status of being the bumiputra of the land or not. Despite of these differences, isn't that we are the people who God has honored this land to us, and gets us to make this nation shine for HIS glory?

The 40th day of Payer for Malaysia is running. May God collects our prayer and literally rain down HIS spring rain to heal our land. I will choose not to leave this country, not to run away from this nation. I will choose to stand on my feet on this land and send my prayer to God.

God, let my nation shine for you!







Tuesday, July 28, 2009

For JOY that comes in Simple

A joyous spirit can be such impactful
that it takes along the painstaking imperfection
and miracle-ly transform it into a perfect thanksgiving
Although the fact doesnt change as we wish
but it eventually bear the divine blessing
which is beyond what we can see can hear can be expect of




Treasure every little thing in your life

as you never know

you might find joy in the hidden corner of death road

or a reward after a painful loss

God is everywhere

when you believe HIM

and Joy is everywhere

when you start to count blessing in simple way

Thursday, July 23, 2009

穿山越嶺的另一邊

花语 当你知道原来在世界的另一端 有着一个人 有着和你同样的经历 走着和你同样的低潮 经历和你一样的矛盾 忽然 世界不再 那么灰 知道自己并不孤单 我想 这就是网络部落格的好


Original Article from here.

最近都很少上來說話
因為害怕孤獨又享受孤獨
因為不想被人懂
想被人懂
因為心中太多的矛盾
並不矛盾
以為世界很複雜
整個單純
以為世界繞著我轉
繞著神轉
身邊的人太多的愛
我要的愛卻要不到
我想給愛
卻卡在我的喉嚨
卡在我的心靈深處
來寫一首歌 叫心靈深處好了
是不是人的心靈深處總是孤獨的
身邊的人太多的愛

我要的愛卻要不到
當你在 穿山越嶺的另一邊
我在孤獨的路上 塞著I POD

炎夏里的一抹蓝

你的存在原来是我从没有发觉的温暖
那些的理所当然
是我天真的以为
原来
我的感动是因为你给的感觉

那朵属于花的云 已经飘向另一个天空
守护着那片更美的花园
也许
人类喜欢在失去之后才了解什么才是真正为我而拥有的
就好像
雨后的一道彩虹
旷野里的一道路
沙漠里的一道江河

我美丽的坚持
就好像
你为我预备
在炎夏里的一抹蓝

Friday, July 3, 2009

Is a Loss, yet is a blessing too

We should be glad that we lost something which we precious in much
cause indeed is not that good for us although we think it is
as God knows what is the best to us that we even not realize
A loss indeed is a blessing
that unleash the cover tap and may a new gift pour upon lavishly


感恩所失去的 因为它也许不是最好的

Monday, June 22, 2009

错过

一分一秒的交替间 我错过什么
人来人往 我错过什么

那份留在山上的感觉 错过了那属于我的感动
那个向我哭诉的破碎 我错过了神要给与的安慰
那个颤抖的背影 我错过了那个可以给的拥抱
那个要给我的复兴 我错过了因该用信心来迎接

撒种有时 收割有时
欢乐有时 悲哀有时

神的命定有季节 属天的祝福也一样
一季复一季 蓦然回首
我错过什么
也许 真的很多
那个年少轻狂的岁月 我错过可以多读一点书的恩典
那个职业新手的日子 错过了给我好好装备的机会
那个爸妈还年轻的日子 我也许错过了在他们还能走时陪他们多走一里路
那个弟弟还年幼时 错过了陪他健康成长的过程
我也许 真的错过很多
那个耶稣还没有来的以前 我是否也错过了可以在世上享受祂奇妙作为的经历?
过去的让它过去
错过的不会回来

Friday, June 19, 2009

沐恩,我们都在成长

最近的沐恩有好多的复兴和成长


那些去Surabaya Asia For Jesus的
我们带回来一颗国度的心
一双为土地复兴流泪的眼睛
一个张开用信心迎接复兴的膀臂
一双愿意站在这个土地来祈求的脚
和一个大异象
Malaysia 也会经历Indonesia 的复兴
我们的祷告 神啊 让我们在这个复兴里有份
让沐恩不会错过你荣耀的那刻


那些去Awakening for Jesus的youth
只能够说 姐姐以你们为荣
看见你们在这么大型的特会里谦卑的服侍
甚至是那小小Jeremy不但没有因为至忠哥哥的责骂而伤心
反而跟至总哥哥说,“没什么啦, 我们都是服侍神”
听着这番话 不经意的眼泪也跟着流了下来
沐恩已经预备好了
神啊 给我们你的复兴

还有那个在Awakening For Jesus坐在最前排的武哥
你知道吗?
A4J 晚上的布道会 看见你在台上带领整千人的会前祷告
我们这群你的羊 大家在台下符望彼此 脸上挂着一个会心的笑容
那是我们的牧师呐。。。


星期日的敬牧会更是看到沐恩合一的复兴
小孩们在台上舞舞跳跳
爸爸妈妈一家亲的见证
长老将摩西的杖给牧师的那一刻
我看见沐恩的复兴
当我们愿意尊荣耶稣在我们当中

我相信 神还有很多的大作为要发生在这里
为要得着这里的灵魂
沐恩将来要成为文良港的一个landmark
当人说起文良港 不是想到有TAR College
不是想到有很多的抢劫案 不是想到这里人口密集
而是想到这里有一个中心
是伤心人得安慰的地方
是有病的人得医治的地方
是苦难人的避难所


这个中心叫沐恩服务中心
因为这里有 耶稣












Monday, June 15, 2009

出走的勇气

给我一个出走的勇气 教我用信心与你筑梦
祷告已经够了 等候已经变成麻木 经历里的兜兜转转快要变成死海
这股江河必须流通 而且是澎湃

给我一个出走的勇气 叫我用信心迎接你的复兴
信心的DNA 是冒险
让我愿意拥抱你的奥秘 经历你的不可思议
因为你的复兴是无可理喻

我的安全区没有你的复兴
所以 给我一个出走的勇气
我要与你筑梦

若你所拣选的没有站出来 若你的时间已到但你的工人说“还有4个月”
那就越过他们
我愿顶上

就给我一个出走的勇气
让我在还有这一口气时
呼吸你复兴的气息
踏着你复兴的浪潮
经历你复兴的荣耀

Sunday, June 7, 2009

The Climb

最近,这首歌给了我很大的亮光。

生命里,很多时候不是一味只为了某个目标而不断努力又努力。过了这个山头,还有另一个高峰要我去越过。过了这一个挑战,还有另一个瓶颈我需要突破。过了这一个低谷,也许还有一个流泪谷我需要去越过。

神没有允许天空常蓝,不过祂就允许有雨,而且雨后有彩虹。不在乎要用多少的时间去征服一座山,不在乎多少的时间去等候一场暴风雨的结束,一个炼净又炼净的过程,一滴眼泪又接一滴眼泪的心痛。。 因为这就是生命的美丽,来体验神美好的供应。

耶稣,叫我不惧怕往前走,叫我不再沮丧一次又一次的软弱,因为我的软弱就要来彰显你的荣耀。







I can almost see it / 眼前依稀浮现
That dream I'm dreamin' but / 萦绕心头的那个梦境
There's a voice inside my head saying / 脑海里却响起一个声音
you'll never reach it / 你永远也不会到达彼岸
Every step I'm taking / 我迈出的每一步
Every move I make feels /我做过的每件事
Lost with no direction / 无不使我迷失方向
My faith is shakin / 开始动摇的,是我的信念
But I, I gotta keep tryin. / 可我,我还是要继续求索
Gotta keep my head held high / 还是要挺胸抬头、阔步前行

There's always gonna be another mountain / 总会有下一座山峦
I'm always gonna wanna make it move / 在等我去将它移开
Always gonna be an uphill battle / 总会有下一个山坡
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose / 很可能令我无法越过
Ain't about how fast I get there / 不在于我要用多久才能抵达峰顶
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side / 不在于山那边倒底是怎样的风景
It's the climb / 这就是攀登


The struggles I'm facing / 我面对的每次搏击
The chances I'm taking / 我抓住的每次机遇
Sometimes might knock me down but / 有时会令我一败涂地
No I'm not breaking / 却决不会磨去我的意志
I may not know it / 或许我不懂其中的意义
But these are the moments that / 但这些时刻却会成为
I'm gonna remember most, yeah / 我一辈子可以珍藏的回忆,啊
Just gotta keep going / 只管继续前进
And I, I gotta be strong / 我要,我要变得坚强
Just keep pushing on 'cause / 只须奋力前行,因为


There's always gonna be another mountain / 总会有下一座山峦
I'm always gonna wanna make it move / 在等我去将它移开
Always gonna be an uphill battle / 总会有下一个山坡
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose / 很可能令我无法越过
Ain't about how fast I get there / 不在于我要用多久才能抵达顶峰
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side / 不在于山那边倒底是怎样的风景
It's the climb / 这就是攀登


Yeah-yeah / 啊 -
There's always gonna be another mountain / 总会有下一座山峦
I'm always gonna wanna make it move / 在等我去将它移开
Always gonna be an uphill battle / 总会有下一个山坡
Sometimes you're gonna have to lose / 很可能令我无法越过
Ain't about how fast I get there / 不在于我要用多久才能抵达顶峰
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side / 不在于山那边倒底是怎样的风景
It's the climb / 这就是攀登


Yeah-yeah-yeah / 啊 - -
Keep on moving / 继续前行
Keep climbing / 继续攀登
Keep the faith / 坚守信念
Baby / 宝贝


It's all about / 这一切就是
It's all about the climb / 这一切就是攀登
Keep your faith / 坚守你的信念
Keep your faith / 坚守你的信念


Sunday, May 31, 2009

Let Praises of you to be Anywhere

Last week I had went to New Way Karaoke. And so surprisingly I found the Joshua band song in the choice list. Is superb duper extreme awesome when you can sing this song in places like... Karaoke.

Initially I was indeed unwillingly to go sing K anymore, after some imformal notice from praise&worship team that we better don go that kind of places. Well, I am agree that a worshipper you should differentiate yourself and be holy as much as you can. However, please mercy me that this current sing k appointment had been set in this early of year. My colleague will be so thrilled if I cancel the appointment again. Hence, with a "guilty" heart I went together with my colleagues. And deep in my heart, I was crying for God's mercy and protection.

God hear our prayer, and He is truly concern of those heart that wish to walk with HIM desperately. Is heavenly wonderful to sing praises to God in that so call earthly-entertainment thingy. I believe, God is taking back every territory which being stolen by earthly devil. 7 aspects that God is doing HIS revival. From economic, politic, media, education, entertainment, religion and XXX (cant recall)... we shall see the revival of God is swipping through the land. The wind of transformation is going to blow in the land of Malaysia. People of God is receiving divine calling and risen up to be the Army of God. I pray, and I pray hard that God please let me encounter this revival during my lifetime, and before you are coming again. I am praying to see with my eyes of how godly revival being done miraculously on the land of God. Malaysia will be the one on the track, together with the other Asia country.





*shy*shy*... let's share with you all my excitement. Err... please don let Yvon see this. Most prob I will being kick-out from PW with this lousy singing. In fact, I don know the song well la. Is not mostly my problem also mar. :) Give me a second chance, I will sing again with flying chord on the air.


The army of God come risen up~!! Let praises of GOd to be hear in ANYWHERE~!!!

Friday, May 29, 2009

We Are Here To Serve

Found this post-up in STAR newspaper last Tuesday, the week after we had back from Indonesia. It was saying that Obama Barak is making fun with his young fan, by letting the little boy to touch his classic-black-man spiky hairstyle. Well, this post-up could be just a normal entertainment news for many of us. But not for us who had encounter the 1st sermon of AFJ in Indonesia.

The 1st sermon is an official opening session for this grant conference. Pas. Philip had toast a warm welcome to visitors from Malaysia (ya, we wave back to him), Brunei, Hong kong, China, US and Taiwan. Many times in opening session, the host of the ceremony will most prob touch the vision and mission of the conference, sharing of how this conference being successfully organised, or even a more typical one - introducing the whole bunch of committee member on the stage and giving WOW to what they have done over the event.

However, not applicable to Pas. Philip style. He told all of us,"every each of us in this hall has PAID on their own to be here," Visitors from everywhere has paid to be in there, same goes to congregate of Mawar Sharon, celebrities (Vanesse Wu, Ari Wibowo, Sien...), and him - pas.Philip as well. The practise of everyone has not exemption is only for one reason - WE ARE HERE TO SERVE.

The annointing of HUMILITY clouded the hall when Pas. Philip asked some of the them to go on the stage and pray for him. Well, is not those who is greater than him, but those who are always take him as their spiritual mentor, respect him as like their general. Pas.Philip knelt down and asked them to place their hand on his head. Can you feel the nervous? If you have been asked to place your head on...er... sister Crystal's head, Would you dare? Or on Pastor Lau's head, would you dare?

In the holy ground of God, no one is somebody. Pas. Philip humble himself and let the cross to lifted high. It is not by anyone power that God is there. But is because of God's power, we are there. We are not there to look at someone, but may we stare only on the cross of Christ itself. Is by the power of God, that make thing happen. Pas.Philip lead us to sing the song of "The Holy ground". The presence of God is so strong in extreme. I couldn't stop my tears while woshipping him. In the very first time of my life, the glory of God is that tangible. It is that real that I was speechless. The glory of God is unverbalised, those words from my mouth cannot define a 1% of how truly glory of God is. That moments, I am silent.

Dear Lord, put on me with your humble shawl. I would not dare to stole a single glory from you. Is you who lifted me up in front of the man. Is all by your might that I am here today. There is nothing... not a single thing I can show-off. In you, I am just nothing. I will take off my shoes, my identity, my achievement and enter into your holy ground.

Lord, I am entering into your holy ground. May I standing in your holy ground, let me dwell in the awe presence of Thee.

Thanks You Jesus.





When I walked through the doors,I sensed His presence, and I knew this was a place where love abounds. For this is a temple the God we love abides here, and we are standing in His presence on holy ground.

Chorus:
We are standing on holy ground,
and I know that there are angels all around.
Let us praise Jesus now,
we are standing in His presence on holy ground.

His presence I know there isjoy beyond all measure, and at His feet, sweet peace of mind can still be found. For when we have a need, He is still the answer, reach out and claim it for we are standing on holy ground

Sunday, May 24, 2009

不配的救恩


今天在唱最后一首歌 - “我爱你,我主”,第一句出来的时候,心里只有一句话,“哦神啊,求你怜悯我”拜四晚在练的时候,已经叫那个大叔re-consider肯定要唱这首吗?大叔今天不会来,那个很会唱的向日葵又不在了,只剩我们这几个跑“黄小琥”路线的来唱,老实说,我非常。。非常。非常。。。没信心~!!
果然。。第一句出来没有一个人到音。那时我好想就闭上嘴巴,不要唱。 神的荣耀不值得用我的歌声来赞美。 神的荣美在世上没有言语可以来衬托,更何况我这个嘴巴不洁的又何德何能来称颂耶稣的名字。
Had encounter this thought during the 1st sermon of Pas Philip in AFJ Surabaya. He brought us into the Holy Zone of God. In the holy ground, take off your shoes, take off your identity, take off your so-call achievement... as in God, no one is somebody. In that very moment, I was speechless. When you encounter the glory of God, you would say nothing. There is no word can verbalise the GLORIOUS of Lord. The very first time, I shut my mouth off.

This morning, I was merely give up to sing anymore, before God soft prompting voice come upon.
“你本来就不配。我从来没有看你的成就来鉴定你的配或不配。我的救恩,本来就是给所有不配的人。。”
What could I say anymore? God, your love is beyond my definition.

Friday, May 22, 2009

In God, all things is POSSIBLE

The happen of Crusade in Juana Old Airport is indeed a MIRACLE done by God. In a stone throw distance from the aircraft landing lane, we have the stage built up, spotlight lighted up here and there, and millions of people shouted the name of "jesus".

During the Crusade management workshop, the event director shared a principle that carved my heart deeply. He said, - "all our seminars, conferences or crusade is not happen because of budget, but it happen because of a VISION from god." Apparently, a vision of organizing a crusade at the old airport had been received by Pas. Philip half a year ago. Even his close ministry partner was gasped of this revealation when Pas. Philip announced it. The committe had gone thru really tough time when getting the permit from government. This has never happen in Indonesia history, or even any country that you are allow to organize any event that located near to the airport. This is due to the concern of the spotlight will distract the plane and literally misleading the plane to land.

The faith of Mawar Sharon Church has open up the heaven gate. Eventually the permit had been approved a week before the event date. Is not by the wisdom of any man, is not by the strength of anyone, indeed is by the might of God, miracle happen. Is heavenly amazing when you are worshipping god while aircraft landed steadily in front of you. God presence was so tangible and strong by the night. The committe member of crusade shared a testimonial that happened on that night. A group of student from other church happen to drop by the crusade venue, accidentally. Their tu-tu car driver had accidentally drove them to a wrong venue. When the moment they step into the compound, one of the student dropped to the floor and bow down. You know what? Is the Glory and presence of God that comes in extreme strong where no one can stand still in HIS glory encounter.

My spirit have been injected with a double dose of faith. Is faith that make God moves in Miracle. Do not frame God in your own understanding. God is way beyond your knowledge. My prayer to God, wishing to see this revival will come to Malaysia one day. Make Muken your choosen church to honor this glory to you. We are ridiculous, but God you work in miraculously. Dear God, let us taste this goodness of miracle excitement as well.

This is my desire, and I surrender to you.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Holy-wood

It was indeed heavenly great that KRIS ALLEN has won the latest American Idol. Kris, the 23-year-old from Conway, Ark., pulled off the ultimate upset, garnering enough of the just under 100 million votes cast to snatch victory away from Adam.

Well, I must admit that I am not a loyal fan of American Idol. Along this season of 8th, I hardly had spent my time to go along with the episod. Frankly, out from the 10 finalist, I can merely recognise there is someone with a red blonde hair, someone that like to wear darkie eyeliner (ok, it is Adam Lambett kononnya), someone that comes in big size and thick side-burn... Never had I realise this white guy with no fancy outfit, yet always appear on screen with his acoustic guitar.

Right until yesterday a write-up of him capture my attention.

Allen is a devout Christian. He was a worship leader at New Life Church in Maumelle, Arkansas, as well as at the Chi Alpha campus ministry of the University of Central Arkansas, where he was a business
major.
[9] He has done missionary work around the world, including in Burma, Morocco, Mozambique, South Africa, Spain and Thailand.

Amazing right~!! My heart pumped with excitement when read the above description. I have no idea of how is his talent, how great is him in the American Idol contest along the way, how much he has earned Americans favor so far? No idea at all, BUT YET.... deep inside my heart, I wish he can win, and more than conqueor.

I believe this is for one solid reason, GOD IS TAKING BACK ENTERTAINMENT FIELD. The world will see how impactfully the army of God is taking over authorities in many aspect, especially entertainment line.

Apparently, KRIS ALLEN result has won God a highest glory and complete privilledge above all. Hallleluyah~!!

Tis time Asia For Jesus in Surabaya, we were packed with celebrities. It was indeed an extra-ordinary experience when you found Vanesse Wu was just sitting 3 rows in front of you. But is true! My sista even shared that when she was queing for the washroom, Vanesse walked pass her with his wavy hair. Take note, without any body guard asking people to back-off. Well, wondering whether my sis went to tress-passing him with her wavy hair back or not. LOL...

Anyway, every conference will opened with a testimonial from one of the celebrities. We have Vanesse Wu on the 1st day, TBC dancer (the taiwan no.1 hip-hop group), and SIEN from Joshua Band.

For more write up about Vanesse testimonial, please go here.

It was even overwhelming when Prawn Prawn told me that this guy was there as well. And we have not seen him at all. He is Dean Fujioka.


就是他啦~!!贾思乐,蒋小花的男朋友啦。。那个以前是小胖的贾思乐啦~!He had shared his encounter moment with bro and sis in christ during Asia For Jesus conference in his blog. (Please check it out here) It is so so exciting and overwhelming again when you see how god moves in between the celebrities. God is gaining back HIS authorities in the aspect of entertainment. And HE is moving really fast now. Not by a normal evangelism, but through their testiomonial, god touches them with miracle, wonder and sign of supernatural encountering. Is prophetic evangelism that bring them to God. The one that know them better than no one.

God confirmed to me HIS vision again by the below blog from Pas. Jaeson Ma. I read it today, although the blog had been published years ago. In a day itself, God unveil numbers of saved souls of celebrities to my knowledge. And I know, is not by coincidence but to GLORIFY his name above all. (For more write-up about the article, please check out here)

In the last months, nearly every week I have seen lost souls in the media and
entertainment world repent and return radically to our Lord Jesus Christ. It
has not been by accident, but has been happening for such a time as this. I
started a simple church network in Hollywood nearly 6 months ago and we have
seen lives changed, hearts turn to Jesus, new disciples being baptized
continually and a light shine out of the darkness. I’m believing for
“HOLY-wood” not “Holywood.”
At the same time, in the last months doors have
flung open in Asia and many from the media and entertainment world have been
encountering the love of God in a fresh new way. I asked the Lord “Why so
many, so quickly and at this moment?” The Holy Spirit impressed upon my
heart that He is sovereignly bridging the East and West for a massive
harvest that will awaken all of North America and Asia for the greatest
revival in these end days. I am humbled, I am praying, but I am prepared


Wednesday, May 20, 2009

一场特会一场梦

"Engkau kusembah Kau yang terindah Pulihkanku dengan darah-Mu Engkauku sembah bapaku mulia Seumur hidupku kumau menyembah-Mu"

The song was hemming in the mind, STILL in this early morning. Stunned was I at first moment. Am I still in Indonesia?

Crusade Army of God. Over 1000 of people came to the altar and submit their life to God. Over 500 people was baptised in water on the night itself.

Past few days was indeed like a dream. Minutes by minutes it shooting pass like a dashing meteor. I wish to recall back every moment, every scenes, every shouting of Halleluyah that I had been through. Seriously, am start wondering Did I ever ever been through such a wonderful days, or it is just a dream? Yeah... I know it sound funny here. BUT, it was truly "depressing" when I found myself woke up on the bed of Sec 2 Wangsa Maju. And now, I am 1000 degree times of regret for not buying the DVD recording of the conference sermons.

The feeling was bubble-ing up when I was on the sky of Indonesia, departuring back to Malaysia. As if there was a sound was keep yield-ling at me, wake up and back to life!

The last service in Mawar Sharon, I was just 5 steps away from Pastor Phlip who stand on the stage. God is so loving that He answer my call. Among the 3000 congregations, everyday He makes me sit nearer and nearer to the stage. From the 1st day of 50 rows away, to 2nd day of 10 rows away, 3rd day of 8 rows away, and lastly the 3 rows away from stage. It was un-verbalised kind of gratitude that how God answer my desire in such a great way.

Starring Pastor Philip from that stone-throw distance, a feeling of insecurity started to plague me. Can I not leaving here? Can I not going back and face my routine life? Can I remain here to have a life that follow by wonder, sign and miracle, like how Mawar Sharon does?

1st day of Asia For Jesus Conference. Pst Philip did the opening session in an extraordinary way. The anointing of HUMILITY clouded the whole place.

All of the sudden while I was still pondering in my own mud, holy spirit talk to my mind -

" 为什么Philip牧师的神会比较大?难道他的神不也是你的神吗?Abraham's god is not your god so? Isaac's god is not your god so? Jacob's god is not your god so? Indonesia god is not your god so?"

"Mawar Sharon's god is not Muk En god so? "

My answer breakout in silence. My guiltiness stream out with tears down the cheeks.

Dear god, may this not a just a conference, but is a dream that you have plant in me. Let it grows like a seed in me, literally let the world witness your spiritual giant dream comes true. Through ME~!!

Cause you are the same god that whoever call on your name, they will save. Jesus, you are my god~!!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

镜中里的真的花




镜中花
载着现实里无法释放的 矛盾

花的好动 是为掩饰那怕被冷漠的

花的刚烈 只希望可以驱走骨子里的软弱

花的理性 因为世界再也容纳不下感性的眼泪

花的挣扎 因为立志行善由得我 行出来由不得我

有时 也搞不懂 到底里面的花蕊 有多少的孤僻 多少的爱热闹

多少的敢爱敢恨 多少的藕断丝连

几多的潇洒 几多的重感情 好想浪迹天涯 也好想安定成家

镜中花 水中月 倒映出的

是真花 是假花 傻傻的分不清楚

不过永恒里 那创造我的 必知道 什么给我是最好的

在祂眼里 是谷中的百合花 是沙仑的玫瑰花

是我 真的花