"Engkau kusembah Kau yang terindah Pulihkanku dengan darah-Mu Engkauku sembah bapaku mulia Seumur hidupku kumau menyembah-Mu"
The song was hemming in the mind, STILL in this early morning. Stunned was I at first moment. Am I still in Indonesia?
Crusade Army of God. Over 1000 of people came to the altar and submit their life to God. Over 500 people was baptised in water on the night itself.
Past few days was indeed like a dream. Minutes by minutes it shooting pass like a dashing meteor. I wish to recall back every moment, every scenes, every shouting of Halleluyah that I had been through. Seriously, am start wondering Did I ever ever been through such a wonderful days, or it is just a dream? Yeah... I know it sound funny here. BUT, it was truly "depressing" when I found myself woke up on the bed of Sec 2 Wangsa Maju. And now, I am 1000 degree times of regret for not buying the DVD recording of the conference sermons.
The feeling was bubble-ing up when I was on the sky of Indonesia, departuring back to Malaysia. As if there was a sound was keep yield-ling at me, wake up and back to life!
The last service in Mawar Sharon, I was just 5 steps away from Pastor Phlip who stand on the stage. God is so loving that He answer my call. Among the 3000 congregations, everyday He makes me sit nearer and nearer to the stage. From the 1st day of 50 rows away, to 2nd day of 10 rows away, 3rd day of 8 rows away, and lastly the 3 rows away from stage. It was un-verbalised kind of gratitude that how God answer my desire in such a great way.
Starring Pastor Philip from that stone-throw distance, a feeling of insecurity started to plague me. Can I not leaving here? Can I not going back and face my routine life? Can I remain here to have a life that follow by wonder, sign and miracle, like how Mawar Sharon does?
1st day of Asia For Jesus Conference. Pst Philip did the opening session in an extraordinary way. The anointing of HUMILITY clouded the whole place.
All of the sudden while I was still pondering in my own mud, holy spirit talk to my mind -
" 为什么Philip牧师的神会比较大？难道他的神不也是你的神吗?Abraham's god is not your god so? Isaac's god is not your god so? Jacob's god is not your god so? Indonesia god is not your god so?"
"Mawar Sharon's god is not Muk En god so? "
My answer breakout in silence. My guiltiness stream out with tears down the cheeks.
Dear god, may this not a just a conference, but is a dream that you have plant in me. Let it grows like a seed in me, literally let the world witness your spiritual giant dream comes true. Through ME~!!
Cause you are the same god that whoever call on your name, they will save. Jesus, you are my god~!!
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