Expectation

Expectation will somehow weary a person, esp when you are expecting someone to love you equally back like how you do. There is no perfect man, and no one will opt to love us back like what we wish. Well, if it does, that will be a credit or a grace gift. However, if it doesnt, then the dissapointment will literally drag us into the mud of depression.

Things will change, environment change, and favor of someone on us will sumhow change as well. We could not do anything on it, in fact is not in our control. However, we can find a place that rest our trust. Man might fail us, but one thing never change - our God never fail.

Embrace the wonderful promise which He has already put in you, even you were still in the womb of your mum! Seeing the big picture of your life, God has a perfect plan that lead you through and He wants you to enjoy the process.

Dear friend out there, the hope of all heart, is in God. Cause, His love never fail. Never expect Man to fill the loneliness in you, cause even him/her could not fill his own heart by his own might. Turn it to the One, that create you, that know you, that knows what is the best for you.

Hugs to all~ amen.

“最后留下来的，会是最爱你的那一个。。”

绕了地球半个圈 发现 你已经不在我们常常相约的那个树
转个圈换个角度 以为 转角可以遇见爱不过原来你已不在
蝴蝶要坠落几次才知道飞行
花儿要枯萎几次才可以等到另一个spring

祢知道
哪个 spring是最美的 让花儿灿烂开放
哪个天空是最海阔天空 让蝴蝶自由翱翔
葡萄园之恋 是祢为我谱上美丽的应许

我相信
在彩虹的另一端

“最后留下来的，会是最爱你的那一个。。”

Melbourne day 9

Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will gives you the desires of your heart - bible psalms 37:4

Commit your way to the lord, trust in him and He will make your way.. - bible psalms 37:5

Yesterday is a sorrow, however today is a new grace. It could be a battlefield of mind that hinder me to do sth for god. Well, been praying for this girlfriend of mine even bfr I arrive in Mel. Knowing her life now has comes to an agony condition, I do hope she will get to knows Jesus. Yeap.. So whoever is reading my blog at this divine moment, pls make a prayer for me to speak out the god of words.

This trip of Mel had taught me a lesson of life: facing your own self 面对自己。Many times we are too tided up with bunch of friends, list of activities, routines, too busy to get compliments from others.. And sort of. Indeed, when everything has gone, what stuff will be in your mind? How peaceful our mind can be?

Indeed indeed, we all need a peaceful of mind.

Going back msia soon. Looking forward to have some changes in my life. Umm.. What kind of changes? Well, out of all the least, I wish to inject god words and promises into my mind.

It's a beautiful day, darling. I'm glad and rejoice.

Melbourne day 8

Will keep this post short as am typing this from my iPhone.

Today wandering in the city centre on my own. Out of no aware, I felt a weird feeling starts to emerge slowly in me. Feel so burden in no word can comprehend, and feel so empty that i hardly can feel my own soul! The moment when I bought a bag of Levis stuff, stepped out from the shop.. My tears nearly drop and I can feel the pain deep down in my heart. That moment, prayer can't seems to lift me up from the shit..

Start asking myself what's my destiny in life, and where shall I head to in my life. Been too tide up of the life in KL that at times you will not have time to think about this. But.. Ye.. When settle down and you try to confront yourself of this issue which has been ignored by you for quite sometime, and ye... You will feel so reckless.

I believe, a vacation is good for recharge. However, too long vacation will sumhow lead u into an emptiness and worth-less. You can't feel the circle of friends which you normally live on with, you can't feel the satisfaction of getting done your job and see the pleasure of your team, you can't feel you are needed by a community... And everything seems so not right to your heart.

God, pull me out from this mud of weary. Is a vacation thou, and I know this is the battle of mind. Let's proclaim, no one can steal the joy I have in You.

I shall.. I shall... I must... Embrace a delight day coming tomorrow.

Eat, Pray & Love in Melbourne - Day 6

Sat together with the lunch break crowd at National Library park. Cultural here is so much unique. In an hour, you enjoy the food, the fresh air outside, the greens, and the interaction with friend. In Malaysia, an hour lunch break you try to crawl through the lunch crowd in food court, finish up your food with your mind stuffed up by a list of to-do item.

This trip of Melbourne teach me a lesson of life: Eat, Pray & Love. At times, the schedulle of daily routine will sumhow blind us from seeing the true value of what we are living on now. Indeed, to be STILL is really a tough lesson to learn of, but once you develope the greatness of this value in your life, you will see the blessing that start to flow into your life.

Am still trying hard to really enjoy my moment, while no more (x1000) worry of the paper work that left on my work table, the new bosses that just come onboard, the event details which need follow ups, wondering how is him now, wondering where shall we head to after I have back to Msia... bla bla bla.

Yeah, the lesson of BE STILL is really stretching me to limit.

Eat, Pray & Love in Melbourne - Day 5

Today, Scrolling through the busiet street in Melbourne city, from Lincoln st, Russel st, Flinders st to Collin st.

Sitting alone at the street cafe, overseeing the crowd crossing through the street. Melbourne is no longer a country by his own people. There are Malaysian, Thai, China, Vietnames, Lebanese.. and etc. Even for food wise, you will find Sushi, Kimchi, Kebab, Wanton, Baguete, Penang Char Kway Teow... and etc.

There are so many foreign people staying in Melbourne with PR visa.

Wondering...

How long have they left their coutry? How far they are away from their country? Which country is born in their heart? Will they pray for their own country, or Melbourne? They here, is for a destiny of life, or to just earn a better living?

My heart feel gratitude that I am still belong to a country, that I've born, I've staying, and I'm belonging. In the land of Malaysia, I shall stand on my feet to love its earth, and spare my knees to pray for a revival that gonna land on this place.

After all, am glad that I am still holding a Malaysian IC.

Eat, Pray & Love in Melbourne - Day 4

Been to Planetshaker city hall church.

Awesome experience: The drummer set right in the middle of the stage. He really beats well, and he flows flawless-ly with the tempo of the holy spirit.

The chorus of one song keep repeating in my mind, "in darkness, in trial, my soul shall sing to you"...

Impactful sermon: Evans - the Snr pastor is the speaker of the service. Very powerful sermon that she speaks / proclaim life into sickness and death. In fact, church nowadays should bring hope and god's powerful healing into the world. Let those who come experience the supernatural power of thee God, and there's the name of God be glorified.

Keep remembering one quote of her," you have been in your rubbish for too long, GET OUT"

At instance, a decision has made deep down in me. Yeap, sth has to be put down and get out from the mess. Man might dissapoint us, but God love never fail. God, I will walk away from this seconds, and welcome you to take in charge of this relationship. Whatever it goes to, I know in YOU, I am safe.

Thanks Lord, for this sweet encounter in this beautiful city that call MELBOURNE.